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Showing posts with label weightloss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weightloss. Show all posts

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Jump Rope Memoirs: Finding My Stride

So, I'm down 10 lbs!

Amazing things happening.  This past week, I did something I've been wanting to do, but haven't: workout 6 days a week and track my eating on Sparkpeople.  And I did!  For the past two weeks, I've just been conscious.  Conscious of the work I'm putting in, and what I've fueling my body with.  It's made such a difference.  So, this is really just an update.  I start week three of the C25K program today.  In my heart I'm a runner lol.  In actuality, I'm barely jogging. But, it's good. I'm going to get there.  So achieving that birthday 10, definitely sparked something in me. Makes me feel "empowered".  So, that's where I am now.  I also, check on NowLoss regularly, for tidbits of information and I stay HERE as often as I can, because the website owner is such an inspiration to me to keep moving. I'm adding two new goals: actively doing yoga and getting up to 3 minutes worth of jump roping. I can do a minute here and there, but 3 minutes straight just hasn't worked for me yet.  Also, on the yoga, I'm still intrigued by it and surprisingly I can do some of the poses better now, but if I actively did it. I know I could do it better.

Friday, January 28, 2011

JumpRope Memoirs #2: Not even a plateau

What I had going on this week can't even be called a plateau. I worked out seriously once this week.  My yoga practice was even limited to yoga in my bed. Which most times it got me at least up and moving.  But I was real stagnant this week.  There seemed to be an overwhelming demand on my time this week. So much so, that I cut out just about everything that had anything to do with working my body.  It was a busy school week for me.  While I don't feel guilty, thankful for that, that I missed my workouts and ate like food was going out of style, I did realize that I however want that movement that comes with exercising. It's not that I see any results immediately when I'm working out, but the feeling is amazing. I didn't have that this week. And I actually feel heavy. I'm a size positive woman true enough, but I normally don't feel my weight and I felt it this week. So, while this was a week of just not doing anything productive across the board, it did at least remind me that I've got to keep moving. That I've got to keep pursuing my goals. It also showed me that I really don't have a plan.  I think about what I want, but I haven't committed the time to even put in writing the actions I need to take to get me there. So, that's my one thing to do for my body this weekend: Read, think of an action plan, put it on paper.  Not going to stress putting it in to action just yet. I need a foundation first, right? Meal planning back in effect Sunday.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Describe a recent Aha! moment. What sparked it?



My recent aha moment happened yesterday.  At 6:30 something... I've been working out for a year and some months at this point.  This can be daunting based on the fact that I haven't lost much weight at all.  I go to a boxing gym Mon-Thursday for roughly 40 minutes or more.  While others lose, i seem to stay the same. Sometimes I don't want to tell people I go to the gym, cause they give me the side eye. But I do go and I love it!   My aha moment was in the mental imagery i have of myself. When I think of myself smaller I realized I don't actually envision  myself smaller. Mentally I limit the change that can take place because i'm afraid.

Afraid of the unknown possibilities of being smaller, healthier and smaller. My personality is already "fresh to death" and getting better lol.  But mentally I block myself.

I'm scared people will "like" me more, not because of the authenticity of who I am, but because my weight has changed. I'm scared people will "think" I'm cuter/prettier, not because my inner light is beaming, but because my weight has changed. I'm scared people will "assume" I'm someone they want to get to know, not because my personality is already contagious lol, but because my weight has changed.

And that makes me afraid, but not afraid enough to not do what I'm trying to do.  So, after my aha moment of "what are you doing to yourself" happened, I've decided to just put on the big girl panties (not literally) and make the changes I need to, to get where I'm trying to go.  I'll be back to meal planning this week and experimenting with cooking once again... lol. Haven't decided if I want to catalog my food via photos or paper just yet... but that [food] is my nemesis... but I got this! I'm in it to win it!